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it sucks when you make plans with someone and then you call them only to find out that they *might* have to do something else and say they'll call you back, but they wait an hour and half until they call you back only to say they are busy.dammit and i wanted to go shopping today. i don't know, yeah it's wild out because it's friday after turkeyday but that's half the fun! getting all christmasy... i was looking forward to it! ah well, that's life right.my sister declared that she hates her family because we wont take her to new york on wednesday to see kelly clarkson at the nbc tree lighting thing. never mind the fact that she'd probably not meet her and be lucky to see her anyway... hell i'd go if i could, mariska & chris will be there too and god knows what i'd do to meet her! although i'd just like drool if i did and grin like a fool.speaking of which, i'm out of new episodes on season 1 :-( tear! saw them all! oh well. just have to hang in there till season 2 comes out. i've seen many of them too already..... well thats bound to happen right?know what i realised wait i think i typed it already that's enoughha i was reading online from sumar.nl and came across the school paper for september or october or something and found an article leonie wrote. klaas was caught by the cops riding his brommer (im not sure what the english word is) and they came to the house and he was fined!!! he's 13. ha that's so funny! he's been riding it since he was 10. i tried it, it was cool.so today i didn't do much, decorated te house for x-mas and didn't eat till the afternoon when i started feeling really dizzy and sick. that's always a bad sign!sunday we're going up to boston, that should be cool. i like boston. and i like shopping and i like christmastime in cities.except i always feel so fucking lonely at holidays. i think its all the hype & expectation that it should be a warm, fuzzy, happy time-and why should it? why is it going to make you feel any different than say, october? its destructive. hell, i still like it though. hope i guess? wow this weatherlady sucks, she's so freaking excited. calm down, chic. (chick? no that's a bird. must be chic.)oh wind advisory again count it! i wanna go sailing. ah man it's been TOO LONG since i've sailed .way too fucking long. well, come march then i'm on the h2o again. March...oh but man it could suck so hardcore, right. so i have the opportunity, i know mr k would so let me, sail with the HS team. but i mean, m and s are on the team... and a and s are always making out... it'll be weird. i dont know. i'll have to deal as it comes. but i could sail with tull maybe that would be hella fun... ha i said hella! anyway, we'll see. i think i will end up there just cuz a. its sailing b. i have no other chances to get on the water. damn whoever stole my boat. you suck. i want the sunfish BACK. bitchass mofo. santa gave it to me you meaniehead. santa wont like you.and it's been like 2/3 years already and i still want my boat back.yeah what the hell someone stole the canoe lauren and i found too. and we totally did find it abandonded. ha that was funny, it was leaking cuz of holes and we had to tow it behind the sunfish to get it home. then we went out in it-we called it the mannatee, so this mustve been 1996-in this tropical storm. the coast guard came over and watched us to make sure we got in cuz we were sinking! the holes/waves weren't a hot combo. it was fun shit. sinking-that's why you wear a life jacket!man, you should've seen that boat. absolute piece of shit. it was like army green and brown and aluminum and just the ugliest thing you could imagine. but it was great.sigh. haven't thought of those days in a LONGass time. man. we had some good times screwing around in our harbor, me and lauren. before she went harvard and i went international. outgrew each other. shrug.